I woke up this morning, feeling a lil lost. It's that feeling when you're not sure what to do and what you want, do you feel that way too? A state of confusion which is affecting me physically, mentally and emotionally. I resent this feeling. I wish it will go away. I want to be myself. I want the old me back. Yet, I feel that my brain is not processing well enough, the way it should be and the way I want it to be. Where is ME? Come back ! Feeling lost....
I woke up this morning, feeling a lil lost. It's that feeling when you're not sure what to do and what you want, do you feel that way too? A state of confusion which is affecting me physically, mentally and emotionally. I resent this feeling. I wish it will go away. I want to be myself. I want the old me back. Yet, I feel that my brain is not processing well enough, the way it should be and the way I want it to be. Where is ME? Come back ! 
Just a lil lonely....
I'm sorry, I know it's been almost a week since I updated my blog. Just that, things are really moving at a snail pace and am adjusting to the loneliness that has crept in after almost 2 months of a hustle and bustle life. Yes, am feeling lonely without Dheeran and I wish I could just take another vacation..lol .. But, I should be able to overcome this soonish ! Let me share with you a few more snap shots and I'll see you in my next blog ...till then, have a pleasant day :-)
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| Dheeran fast asleep; I did not want to let him go. That was the day he left to Kuching :-( |
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| "Hmm...mummy, do I really have to go home.. can we stay just one more day ? " |
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| "What !!! Go Home ??? " |
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| "I love being in the car...it's just too awesome" |
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| "Oh ! God, am almost naked....please dont put this on your blog" -hehehe..I did, honey :-) |
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| "I'm gonna miss all the attention I'm getting... see they're taking another pic of me.." |
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| "Mummy ! can you carry me please...i dont want this walker..." |
Mixed Feelings...my prince charming is going home :-(
It's going to be a weird life without my lil' prince charming, my chubby nephew. Yes, he is going home tomorrow. The past one month + with him was blissful. I have never been with my family more often than this. I would say Dheeran has pretty much brought us together - a family bonding thru' vacation, having our meals and watching movies together and much much more. He has made a great impact in our lives - in fact, in my life. So, today I am going thru' some mixed feelings..happy as well as sad. Happy to spend another day with the lil one and sad cos' it will be "bye-bye" tomorrow. I'll be lost for sure. It's going to be lonely again. And, obviously I'm going to be like a fish out of water without him...:-( I hope he will come back fast ! You better do, Dheeran or I'll be sore with you :-) .....I am passionate about YOGA !
Yes ! I am passionate about yoga. It is now an important part of my life. I did not know the benefits of yoga until I started doing it a year and half ago. It gives you the fitness – the mental, physical and spiritual. That’s how I felt. I learnt patience amongst many others. When I started yoga, all I did was some simple asanas (postures), breathing techniques and gradually to some difficult ones but then again, I am no expert. It will take awhile to be one. Yoga is actually like life. It can be hard initially but with practice and perseverance it becomes much easier. And, there’s more to yoga besides asanas. The breathing exercise known as pranayama is important. Here, you will learn everything about breathing...how to control your breath through various breathing exercises. There are also the various poses in suryanamaskar (sun salutation) - again, in the beginning I was kinda stunned how inflexible I was and the stretching had me in pain the following days : - ) But, over time, I became flexible and the pain decreased. Now, I really look forward to have some good stretches. One thing about doing all the asanas is never ever force doing 'em. You may end up in injuries. So let the poses come naturally. You will be stiff initially but with practise, the flexiblity will tune in and you'll get the poses right ! It's not at all like "no pain no gain" in yoga. Never ever go beyond body limits, I was told. Never unnecessarily strain your body. If you can't do a certain posture, you just gotta stop. That's all you've got to remember when you do the poses.  |
Well, that's all about my passion. I do hope one day I could translate all that I've been taught and to be taught - as a yoga teacher, just like my yoga master, the awesome Mr Ayappan who hails from Kerala, India. Thank you so much, sir !
To Make You Feel My Love....
It's a bright and beautiful Tuesday morning. A quarter past 7 and am already in the office - "Danem the early bird" ! The office cleaners are here too. As they move around the office cleaning and clearing, I would do my usual stuff - listening to songs and day dream ! Yes...I do... a little in the mornings..before the rest of my colleagues clock in... ...so, I sit back and just close my eyes....and drift away....I am such a day dreamer :-) ....that is the moment when I let my mind wander and as my thoughts go miles and miles away....I dream of all that I want...dreams are free so why not, huh ? :-).....at times when I am in a playful mood, some foolish dreams like trying to conquer the world do pop in...LOL ! but mostly my dreams are kinda romantic ;) I dream of my knight in shining armour...but unfortunately, he appears faceless and I really don't know his motive :-( Then, I dream of me being Cinderella and losing my shoe....haha....and I can't tell you more....so, while these dreams play in my mind...darn !! the horrible noisy vacuum cleaner will disrupt and bring me back to reality :-( ......and there goes my most precious moment........Today, I got swayed away by this song - Adele - "To make you feel my love"....it's a beautiful love song .....just listening to it makes me want..... to make you feel my love...did you feel it ? If you did, then let me know ! ;)
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love
Dheeran & Auto Rickshaw :-)
While in Chennai, India recently - we decided to give Dheeran his first experience travelling in an auto rickshaw. It was an adventure for him - if he knows and remembers ! lol...but it was pretty much an adventure for me !!! lol.....With the chaotic traffic of Chennai, you must see the way the drivers whiz thru' the city in such speed. Sometimes I feel that these drivers actually compete with one another...haha...and not forgetting the sound of the horns and the way they hoot away ! Here, take a look at the face of fear in Dheeran as he takes his first road adventure in Chennai in an auto rickshaw !...lol....
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| Ammaa... ! I don't know what this is all about... |
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| Oh! God ...look at the way its driven... |
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| the bumps...God ! ammaaa...the driver went into the pot holes..oouch !! |
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| this is the last time I'll ever take part in this stunt... |
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| what should i do now ?? |
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| hmm..i think i got an idea ! |
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| I'll just pretend to be asleep... |
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| and this is the auto rickshaw...i'll never forget you !!! LOL ! |
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| And, finally...this is where I like to be - safe and sound with my appa !!! hehehe... |
It's December already !!!
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Has 2011 been treating you good ? Mine has been good, mostly...thank God ! So, what am I thankful for...here's me with my "thank you note" (like a winner in the awards show...lol...just bear with me? );
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Firstly, I am thankful to God for blessing my family with an addition - yay ! that's my lil' prince charming, my sister's new-born. Dheeran has brought sunshine into my life which was at one time dull and painful. Thank you my chellakuttie, my lovey-dovey cutie-pie, my hearthrob, my sweetest of all....lol..
Secondly, I am thankful for the many friends whom I have made along the way, from North, South, East and West...so to speak ...lol ! Friends mean a lot to me and above all when they become a true friend, my buddy, one who can listen to all my rantings, one who will come to my aid when I need most....it's truly a blessing to have such a friend....Thank you, my good God ! You've made my days seem brighter by leading me to the path where beautiful people are - Your creation - they actually do exist !!... :-)
Then, I am thankful for the vacations I had - to Seattle in June/July (which I will blog later on), family vacation to Kuching in May and the recent trip to India ! Thank-you God ! You've got us to India and brought us back home - safe and sound !
I should not also forget about my blog - this gave me the chance to say what I want to say..that in my mind and in my heart. This is a nice place to vent out frustrations too...lol....Thank you, my dear God ! You've created so many avenues and I promise to use them wisely..:-)
Whilst the good times came in abundance, I did have to overcome some bad days too. That's all part of life. An eye-opener for me in terms of health and wealth. Hmm....how well it rhymes. Yup, I was not too well in the early part of the year but managed to pick up and float thru'....lol ; Wealth wise - my career ! - Not so stable but I should thank God that till today, I am surviving ! I am a survivor - ...actually not ! the credit should go to my boss - he is keeping us afloat and I like the way he keeps saying " aahhh...we're almost there - we'll get to see the light at the end of the tunnel soon !" lol.....He is a great man - my boss ! I salute you, sir .... lol ....
Okay, then...this being my first blog entry in December 2011 - wishing you all a very happy month - remember, if you've made resolutions this year, you've got exactly 29 days more to accomplish ! Go for it ! You can make it !....Till then, love and cheerio ! Will write again soon....
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